duh .. 我要开始了。。
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
duh .. 我要开始了。。
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
Friday, January 4, 2008
Thursday, December 13, 2007
aye aye !! i'm having holidays .. i'm enjoying every moment of it .. time flies , surprisingly , the first week of my holidays is coming to an end.
in retrospect of my college life , they had been wonderfully awesome. lecturers are helpful , they're experienced , they're knowledgeable . friends .. hah !! like yvonne , katherine , and julia ? they're my college buddies ^^ en .. we're the kl^3 =P this sounds like a very lame name , it's our initial for our surname ... hahhahahhaa ... but we're prone to love it ^^ we did a lot of stuffs together ... and i would like to apologise for not being able to be with u guys sometimes , but trust me , i sayang u guys as well , it's deep inside my heart .
i had been lonely , living alone without the company of family members had always been weird for me . but luckily , i strived and survived tho .. there were nites where i weeped over the absence of my family members , i was blaming myself for not being together wif them to go through those time of adversities.. i have to admit , i was really feeble that moment .. there were just times when i'm not myself .
and academic wise , i am shame to say , i failed . from spm to cal , it's a major transition for me . it's of greater intensity and volume , and i wasn't well prepared for it . i'm just progressing at the advanced subsidiary level , and yet i'm feeling the tense and pressure. bio , chem is going fine for me , but physics and maths ?? ho ho . .and somemore with thinking skills ?? sorry dude , u got the wrong person . i'm a total failure in these subjects , despite mr. hari's effort to make physics an interesting subject so we won't drop his subject, i still can't handle physics well . i'm sorry .
it's the end of the year , and i'm turning 19 next year , last year of me being a teenager . my teenager life haven't been going pretty smooth for me , am i not putting enough effort ?? this is my last year . i'm not gonna compromise wif my bad attitude , i'm not gonna stay lazy , i'm not gonna stay demotivated . i wanna get good results , i wanna gain more knowledge , i wanna enjoy life , i'm gonna live life to the fullest .
live life to the fullest , that will be my new year ( 2008 ) aspiration.
yi ying
in retrospect of my college life , they had been wonderfully awesome. lecturers are helpful , they're experienced , they're knowledgeable . friends .. hah !! like yvonne , katherine , and julia ? they're my college buddies ^^ en .. we're the kl^3 =P this sounds like a very lame name , it's our initial for our surname ... hahhahahhaa ... but we're prone to love it ^^ we did a lot of stuffs together ... and i would like to apologise for not being able to be with u guys sometimes , but trust me , i sayang u guys as well , it's deep inside my heart .
i had been lonely , living alone without the company of family members had always been weird for me . but luckily , i strived and survived tho .. there were nites where i weeped over the absence of my family members , i was blaming myself for not being together wif them to go through those time of adversities.. i have to admit , i was really feeble that moment .. there were just times when i'm not myself .
and academic wise , i am shame to say , i failed . from spm to cal , it's a major transition for me . it's of greater intensity and volume , and i wasn't well prepared for it . i'm just progressing at the advanced subsidiary level , and yet i'm feeling the tense and pressure. bio , chem is going fine for me , but physics and maths ?? ho ho . .and somemore with thinking skills ?? sorry dude , u got the wrong person . i'm a total failure in these subjects , despite mr. hari's effort to make physics an interesting subject so we won't drop his subject, i still can't handle physics well . i'm sorry .
it's the end of the year , and i'm turning 19 next year , last year of me being a teenager . my teenager life haven't been going pretty smooth for me , am i not putting enough effort ?? this is my last year . i'm not gonna compromise wif my bad attitude , i'm not gonna stay lazy , i'm not gonna stay demotivated . i wanna get good results , i wanna gain more knowledge , i wanna enjoy life , i'm gonna live life to the fullest .
live life to the fullest , that will be my new year ( 2008 ) aspiration.
yi ying
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