i just turned 20

.TURNING 20 .

hey i turned 20 a few days ago. i wonder how time flies. it has been 1/5 decade i live in this world, amazing ain't it ? i really can't believe i have survived the 2o years.

turning 20 means a lot to me, which is inexplicable.i believe perserverance will lead and guide me through days ahead.

thanks to those who remembered. love u guys ;)

disappointment

i have received an offer from NUS . finally . well, i'm not so sure whether it's good news or bad, but ... it's chemical engineering !!! my 2nd option to be exact. it was kinda gratifying since they gave me an offer, but i feel sad coz i'm not accepted for the medicine course, the one i am always expecting, i guess sometimes it's hard to get things that you REALLY want, life can't be always smooth, but to console myself, i shall say : everything happens for a reason. geez, that sounds much better, ain't it ? rather than the self pitying version. but i'm really pissed. i did made an effort to prepare for the interview, and i was even turned down before the interview !! i shall apply those skills in later time. it's their loss i tell u .

and now, i am having a hard time too. having to choose between chemical engineering and pharmacology. i don't really quite know how would i have ended up in such situation, but really , sometimes things just happen when we least expect it. SURPRISE !!! that gives a jolt and probably some twist and turns in my life perhaps .

well, i'm turning 20. i should have handle this situation in a much more mature way. so probably i should quit venting on blog and turn to look for more practical solutions. and at the meantime, remaining happy and wishful seems so hard for me. i'm feeling disappointed .

well, not much to worry, i'll grieve and move on. i'll be fine , i just need some time.

LOST and FOUND

after much wallowing in self-search, finally i have made up my mind. if, by luck or by chances, i am accepted by NUS to study medicine, i'll be going NUS. * cheers for me for finally making up such an arduous decision * hip-hip-hurray! =D

it is not an easy decision to make, since both seems luring and temptative to me hahaa. but in my hearts of hearts, my wish still tends towards becoming a doctor. weird eh ?? ain't it ? after so much twist and turns, finally i believe : i would live happiest as a doctor, after all. imperial college might be some branded clothes that doesn't fit me, that's the way i would like to describe it.

hence, i'm seriously counting on my application to NUS. my application is still processing, hence i am quite worried. ME ME The WORRIER !!! gosh here i am again, WORRIED for nothing. i would like to crack my head and tell the brain : wake up my dear yi ying , there's nothing to worry =p

there's a saying : if you want something , the whole universe conspires to help you to get it. i hope it turned out to be true for me too . =)

i'll be waiting with hope.