venting

i am now holding on to the thin strand of reasoning.

please don't think i am very free, i am having exams.
i am not begging. i'm just asking. is it that hard ?
and the reason i'm doing this is not for me.
step back and look at the bigger picture.

please be considerate to me too.
please trust me and believe in me that i'm not being mean. i can't. i really can't.(usually i would try my best, but sorry i can't this time. i'm really really sorry.)
i have greater priorities ahead.

i am already under stress mode. don't make things even harder for me. please.

if it snaps and the little devil breaks loose, i dunno what will happen.

it is exam period and i just realised little things do make me get on my nerves. little things that i don't usually care. or won't be offended nor affected. things that i would usually say OK.

i am being over-sensitive and i hate myself for being so sensitive.


telling myself : come on, just get over it.

i'm alright.

LOVE and FORGIVENESS where art thou?