2nd year. 1st month

here i am, just about to pass a month's life of my 2nd year in university, perhaps this is the time to review how i have lived my life for the past month.

there is this realisation that came across my mind : i have realised that i am neither here, nor there. i am just hanging in the middle, which apparently seems i'm not getting anywhere. so, not so good. but at the very least, i have taken the very first step and i guess the courage to make the first move, is a good start.

i have got drunk during my first month here. it was my ex-roomie's, laura's birthday and she poured me 3 cocktails. by the 2nd and half, i'm already tipsy. what happened after i got drunk was pretty embarassing and therefore i vow, not to succumb to the lures of alcohol. ANYMORE.

i have quitted learning french this year, for i am afraid i don't have time to cope with it. so, i guess it is time to do some self-learning and save the 185pounds for shopping and travel, and i pretty much count on my housemates to teach me :P so, no more french this year.

i have been missing my bernard sunley mates as well! i guess they have changed my perspectives quite a lot. and i somehow regret not spending enough time with them, i guess i spent a lot of my time last year with books. i could have learnt more from them. but anyways i do hope there is an opportunity to catch up with each other sometime, some day.

so, this is a short note from me.

and i would like to quote what my personal tutor said to me the other day : it is impossible to predict the future, so why not do what you enjoy best, and make the best out of it ? i guess it has wakened me up a bit. i have to admit : i am a person who likes order in life. i am a person who lives with 'to-do-lists' and deadlines, and i live on expected outcomes. this is good, but i guess i should let go of my principles and do what i enjoy doing, once in a while. my floormate last year, jae have been telling me to loosen up a bit, but i wonder why now only it starts to make sense. but i guess it's not too late yet :D

so, another 99 more steps to go !! jia yous!

love from london.

p.s. : it is really hard to blog and organise my thoughts after i haven't been doing this for a long time. but i promise i will come up with more exciting posts. next time :)