midnight rambles

yes i shamelessly admit that i am a lazy blogger.

but as bad a person is, there will be some moments of remorse and this moment just came to me and i decided to do something about it. so here's a quick update from me:

my parents are coming !! and you can imagine the little girl inside me screaming hooorah which can be heard blocks away :) yes. I am super-excited-about my parents coming over!! deep down inside i know i am bad daughter for ridiculously allowing my parents to fly all the way from msia to find me, and yes i think i made insatiable demands (oh well, sort of) but my conscience keep telling me it's alright !! (and i think that is the wrong bit which i admittedly deny)

hrmm, so it is time for me to be spoiled and pampered by the most amazing mum on earth, at least for a few days before reality hits back again. i can't wait for hugs and kisses, cookies, milo to be delivered to be by my most favourite person(s) on earth. X)

i do consider myself a lucky girl, all the time. and i do count my blessings. :D

i am looking forward to a "dopamine-endorphine-serotonin-hypersecretion week"!!

random thoughts: barricades are non-existent. they are just formed by our perceptions. if you hit something, re-route and you'll find your way. :)

i know i'm rambling nonsense. it's late night now. :D

forgiving

if i did not forgive,
i should be untrue to myself,
in that i should thus act as if i were not guilty in the same way as the other has been guilty to me.

i must forgive the lies directed against myself,
because my own life has been so many times blotted by lies;
i must forgive the lovelessness,
the hatred,
the slander,
the fraud,
the arrogance which i encounter,
since i myself have so often lacked love,
hated, slandered, frauded, and been arrogant.

i came across this from my humanities reading and i am just so impelled to share it.

forgiving, is a sort of sweetened triumph of self-sacrifice. and by forgiving, is to be just to oneself, to be sincere to oneself. don't you think so? :D

random.

i came across this when i was writing for my humanities essay:

"whenever my life has given itself out in any way for the other life, my eternal will-to-live experiences union with the eternal, since all life is one. I possess a cordial which secures me from dying of thirst in the desert of life."

interesting. if only everyone behaves that way, what a wonderful world we would be in. :)


3 more days to go and i'm free from exams!! i can't wait for this to be over :D


p.s.: bao bei i promise i'll update you soon. once my exam ends. ;)