i don't know how far i reached
i don't know how far i'm away
i'm lost i'm lost .
the further i went
the longer i'm away
the bigger the gap there is between us.
the times that we used to cherish
laughter, tears and joy
became past memories .
i hate myself so
for not being by your side to share all ur sorrow and joy
and now this is what became of our friendship
frozen.
ice shall melt
fire shall be rekindled
no matter what happens
you will always be in my heart , always .
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
hey , here's a peep into my life ever since i finished a-levels :
i enjoyed holidays in penang for 3 days 2 nites wif kath and vonne ( too bad can't meet wif jul ) ate until we bloated =)
then, i attended financial planning course for 4 days , which was kinda interesting but mainly boring ,in general , still okay , not bad
then for the rest of the day i woke up at 6.50, reach kindergarten at 7.30 and started to work until 7.30 . it is tiring but quite fun =)
and i got my BMAT results today, i think i got more than what i expected for, it's pure luck, and i hope to hear some good news from imperial soon =)
pray pray pray .. =)
i enjoyed holidays in penang for 3 days 2 nites wif kath and vonne ( too bad can't meet wif jul ) ate until we bloated =)
then, i attended financial planning course for 4 days , which was kinda interesting but mainly boring ,in general , still okay , not bad
then for the rest of the day i woke up at 6.50, reach kindergarten at 7.30 and started to work until 7.30 . it is tiring but quite fun =)
and i got my BMAT results today, i think i got more than what i expected for, it's pure luck, and i hope to hear some good news from imperial soon =)
pray pray pray .. =)
Friday, November 14, 2008
worried.
i have to admit i worry for everything. i'm not that kind of really optimistic person, but i'm trying to be. it's kinda successful at times, but now it just failed. i just can't stop worrying and can't put that thought away from my head. bah !! what worries me now is that i haven't even heard any reply from the universities. whereas b.s. got 3 of 'em .. ( congratulations my b.s. !!! i'm happy for u !!! <3 ) i'm not sure whether it's worth worrying, coz definitely b.s.'s result is better than mine, hehe. =))
i am starting to judge myself : have i made the wrong decision ?? was it ever wrong to pick up on a course which has only 20+ intake for a year? no. i didn't make any mistake this time. perhaps this a test for me, what started and what i picked wasn't easy. i just hope, i just really really hope i would hear reply from university as soon as possible perhaps ?? seriously , this waiting thing is daunting me, testing my patience. i hate it . =p
haha. i feel good now. i'll be keeping my fingers crossed to hear from cambridge, imperial, edinburgh, king's college, and bath as soon as possible. hope the reply i hear from them won't let me down. ying is praying hard, seriously . =))))
i am starting to judge myself : have i made the wrong decision ?? was it ever wrong to pick up on a course which has only 20+ intake for a year? no. i didn't make any mistake this time. perhaps this a test for me, what started and what i picked wasn't easy. i just hope, i just really really hope i would hear reply from university as soon as possible perhaps ?? seriously , this waiting thing is daunting me, testing my patience. i hate it . =p
haha. i feel good now. i'll be keeping my fingers crossed to hear from cambridge, imperial, edinburgh, king's college, and bath as soon as possible. hope the reply i hear from them won't let me down. ying is praying hard, seriously . =))))
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
weee ~~~
i'm done wif 6 papers , finished 75% of my A2 final exams !! 25% more to go , and i'm off my hands on a-levels syllabus =)))))
these few weeks, i'm not quite sure what i lived for , exams perhaps ?? BMAT , TSA , A-levels , finishing them off one by one, unloading my burdens , now and finally, it's coming to and end. next week, i'm going bac penang, i'll be staying there for at leats 10 months before heading wherever i'm supposed to go.
coming to think of tat , i think ten months is really short. i'm gonna spend lots and lots of time with my family before time really goes out. oh ya of coz wif my frens too !! haven't been seeing them for ages, me kinda miss them . =*** hehe .
and following months would be busy, i think i would be working, and meanwhile , anxiously anticipating to hear news from respective universities for my application . i hope competition is not too tough , but for every 7 applicant, only 1 gets a place, is it hard to get in ?? especially me being an international student ?? anyways , i shall cross my fingers and pray for the best !! =))))
the journey is coming to an end. and a new one is yet to begin .
i'm done wif 6 papers , finished 75% of my A2 final exams !! 25% more to go , and i'm off my hands on a-levels syllabus =)))))
these few weeks, i'm not quite sure what i lived for , exams perhaps ?? BMAT , TSA , A-levels , finishing them off one by one, unloading my burdens , now and finally, it's coming to and end. next week, i'm going bac penang, i'll be staying there for at leats 10 months before heading wherever i'm supposed to go.
coming to think of tat , i think ten months is really short. i'm gonna spend lots and lots of time with my family before time really goes out. oh ya of coz wif my frens too !! haven't been seeing them for ages, me kinda miss them . =*** hehe .
and following months would be busy, i think i would be working, and meanwhile , anxiously anticipating to hear news from respective universities for my application . i hope competition is not too tough , but for every 7 applicant, only 1 gets a place, is it hard to get in ?? especially me being an international student ?? anyways , i shall cross my fingers and pray for the best !! =))))
the journey is coming to an end. and a new one is yet to begin .
Friday, October 24, 2008
over-optimistic and totally clueless .
yes. i had my interview on hour 0930 - 1000, and i emo-ed till now, hour 0306 which is flashed on my computer screen.
my feelings rite now ? numb i guess. i was stunned, shocked, and panicked after tat . even tho i laughed and laughed and laughed during the interview session. ( laughter is my secret weapon =) ) well ... i have to say that i was totally underprepared. my first hand information told me that my interviewer is the director of studies in christ college, but who the hell knows that he's actually teaching chemistry ??????? all the while , i had been preparing myself to read science articles, thinking of being asked on general knowledge, but who knows he teaches chemistry ??? yeayea , blame me for being too naive and believing in all that.
when i first stepped in , i was asked to draw math graphs , later , i was bombarded with the science questions and one of the weirdest u might think of , what is the total number of cells in the body ? muahahhahaa. and why are we not silicon people ?? we are in the group 4 element , carbon people , and since they have same chemical reactions , why are we not called silicon people ?? weird. haha . but i managed to answer those .
but as to the basics , i failed completely . i forgotten all my basics !! i was too engrossed in preparing myself in the general knowledge part, preparing to get some questions on ... what's ur view on .... ??? but in the end, i got math and science questions. too sad. too bad. what shall i say ? it all depends on luck. not everyone gets into cambridge, no matter how hard u try, how smart you are , it all depends on ur performance during that crucial moment.
i shall try harder for my tsa . =)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
weirdo. additional post *winks*
well , the previous post published was kinda weird. but i'm trying to vent out my feelings, guess it didn't work. i shall try harder again next time perhaps?? hehe.
ok . here's a conversation between me and a ( mark the word i'm about to use ) stereotypist :
i was in a photocopy shop , having a chat with the aunty .
the photocopy shop is currently under a miniscule renovation , so i was asking about the shop
( the conversation below is in chinese- direct translation from chinese )
me: aunty, u're having renovation ah ??
aunty : yea , we're planning to move the computers to here. so that the counter won't be so packed with people in the morning .
me : oh i c. ( i kept quiet for a moment )
aunty : but u can see it later, u're now having AS exams rite ?
me : oh no aunty , i'm having A2 now.
aunty : so what are u going to study later ??
me : oh . pharmacology . produce drugs d ( well , pharmacology is not actually the production of drugs, but to help people understand it , i just made a generalisation )
aunty : oh , quite good hor, here u can't find this degree .
then ... here comes the uncle ( who overheard our conversation ) .
( the conversation below is in english. )
uncle : what are u studying gal ?
me : pharmacology.
uncle : PHARMATOLOGY ?
me : yea. ( i know i'm bad but i just don't bother to correct him )
uncle : then where are u going ?
me : UK perhaps .
uncle : oh , then u have to start to SPEAK ENGLISH !!! u know , there aren't a lot of chinese over there .
i was thinking ( uncle , aren't we conversing in english at this moment , right now ?? what does he mean like tat ?? i chose to speak watever language which is more preferable to me, it's my rights rite ? )
but i replied him this way ..
me : oh .. i dun think it would be a problem .
uncle : u know , BROKEN ENGLISH is not accepted there and there are not many chinese people around , how are u going to mix with people like tat ? ( i believe he's making an assumption that when chinese ed students speak english , it's all BROKEN. )
i just smiled and smiled .what more can i say ??
uncle , please don't stereotype people for speaking chinese. i can speak in two languages, but i prefer chinese coz it makes me feel closer to my roots. I love chinese culture. i don't abuse it. i speak chinese coz i'm proud of it. k ?? and i have confidence in myself that me speaking english won't be a problem in the near future. all the while , i've conversed with u in english and i believe the version u heard is the proper one. please don't stereotype me just because i prefer to speak chinese.
well . perhaps i was a bit too sensitive as well . u can ignore me if u feel so. =p
ok . here's a conversation between me and a ( mark the word i'm about to use ) stereotypist :
i was in a photocopy shop , having a chat with the aunty .
the photocopy shop is currently under a miniscule renovation , so i was asking about the shop
( the conversation below is in chinese- direct translation from chinese )
me: aunty, u're having renovation ah ??
aunty : yea , we're planning to move the computers to here. so that the counter won't be so packed with people in the morning .
me : oh i c. ( i kept quiet for a moment )
aunty : but u can see it later, u're now having AS exams rite ?
me : oh no aunty , i'm having A2 now.
aunty : so what are u going to study later ??
me : oh . pharmacology . produce drugs d ( well , pharmacology is not actually the production of drugs, but to help people understand it , i just made a generalisation )
aunty : oh , quite good hor, here u can't find this degree .
then ... here comes the uncle ( who overheard our conversation ) .
( the conversation below is in english. )
uncle : what are u studying gal ?
me : pharmacology.
uncle : PHARMATOLOGY ?
me : yea. ( i know i'm bad but i just don't bother to correct him )
uncle : then where are u going ?
me : UK perhaps .
uncle : oh , then u have to start to SPEAK ENGLISH !!! u know , there aren't a lot of chinese over there .
i was thinking ( uncle , aren't we conversing in english at this moment , right now ?? what does he mean like tat ?? i chose to speak watever language which is more preferable to me, it's my rights rite ? )
but i replied him this way ..
me : oh .. i dun think it would be a problem .
uncle : u know , BROKEN ENGLISH is not accepted there and there are not many chinese people around , how are u going to mix with people like tat ? ( i believe he's making an assumption that when chinese ed students speak english , it's all BROKEN. )
i just smiled and smiled .what more can i say ??
uncle , please don't stereotype people for speaking chinese. i can speak in two languages, but i prefer chinese coz it makes me feel closer to my roots. I love chinese culture. i don't abuse it. i speak chinese coz i'm proud of it. k ?? and i have confidence in myself that me speaking english won't be a problem in the near future. all the while , i've conversed with u in english and i believe the version u heard is the proper one. please don't stereotype me just because i prefer to speak chinese.
well . perhaps i was a bit too sensitive as well . u can ignore me if u feel so. =p
i need a break
stupid. i just finished paper 3and4 for maths !! i have 3 more subjects to go.
well, my mind is very crumpled up rite now. I have an interview on friday, assessment test on saturday and here i am, blogging ? hey, i need a break.
yes . yiying needs a break . =p
well, my mind is very crumpled up rite now. I have an interview on friday, assessment test on saturday and here i am, blogging ? hey, i need a break.
yes . yiying needs a break . =p
Thursday, August 14, 2008
谁能了？谁能了？
谁能了？ 谁能了？
我迷失了，在丛林中，
是在利欲的森林里吗？
还是在内心深处，
心底的藤蔓把自己攀住了，
我逃不了。
四处摸索，
世界太险恶，
森林阴森森，
乌云弥漫天际，
森林，藤蔓的绿，
绿得阴森，绿得恐怖，
乌云的黑，让我看不着五指，
继续摸索。
我期待看见阳光普照的大地。
谁能了？谁能了？
独行丛林，
古怪的声音萦绕耳际，
把我逼风了，
心底的咆哮，
我尝试逃走，
但我被拌住，跑不了。
我受不了，
想大声呐喊，
声带发出的声音，
竟是那么地尖，那么地锐，
那么地凉。
悲泣的声音，
使我不寒而栗，
我知道，我迷失了自己。
谁能了？谁能了？
我真的很累了，
透支了，
我不想做垂死的挣扎，
我只想离开。
终于，
我用着最后的力气，
奋力向前，
阵阵暖流泉入心脉，
我大步迈开，
向前奔跑，
就算精疲力竭，
我志向依在，
我不愿继续腐烂，
我知道，路在前方。
我迷失了，在丛林中，
是在利欲的森林里吗？
还是在内心深处，
心底的藤蔓把自己攀住了，
我逃不了。
四处摸索，
世界太险恶，
森林阴森森，
乌云弥漫天际，
森林，藤蔓的绿，
绿得阴森，绿得恐怖，
乌云的黑，让我看不着五指，
继续摸索。
我期待看见阳光普照的大地。
谁能了？谁能了？
独行丛林，
古怪的声音萦绕耳际，
把我逼风了，
心底的咆哮，
我尝试逃走，
但我被拌住，跑不了。
我受不了，
想大声呐喊，
声带发出的声音，
竟是那么地尖，那么地锐，
那么地凉。
悲泣的声音，
使我不寒而栗，
我知道，我迷失了自己。
谁能了？谁能了？
我真的很累了，
透支了，
我不想做垂死的挣扎，
我只想离开。
终于，
我用着最后的力气，
奋力向前，
阵阵暖流泉入心脉，
我大步迈开，
向前奔跑，
就算精疲力竭，
我志向依在，
我不愿继续腐烂，
我知道，路在前方。
Monday, July 28, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
oh god . it's May !!!!!!
haha .. well ... there are lots of stuffs happening around May ...
to me , May equals :
1. AS actual . ( god. i'm gonna whack myself wif pillow . still blogging now ??? !! haha . nvm . not gonna kill anyway )
2. Mother's day ( which is one day before my AS , oh gosh , i'm not going to celebrate mother's day wif mummy this year , and i haven't got her a present - but i know what to get her =) , mummy sorry , i love u =* )
3. * trumpet blows * somebody's birthday !!! hahhahaha!! to make it a little bit more obvious , it's my birthday , haha . a lil' bit beh pai seh here , coz no one's gonna look on my blog anyway , i dun care =) . haha . oh yea . it's bad oso . coz i'm no longer a "flower" anymore ( girls at the age of 18 are flowers, haven't u heard before ? ) but after 18 , they never said wat u are . i guess would be grass / fertiliser . lol . anyway , it's gonna be common . just like anyday of my life, coz it's during exam period . can't celebrate oso . just wish myself happy b'day ba .
and seriously , actuals is killing me . softly , tenderly , stretching it's claws on me . ( sounds like a cat rite ?? i hate cats . due to mr. hari's influence , haha . ) so , that concludes i hate actuals as much as i hate cats . ( thinking skills application ?? i think i'm gonna go crazy wif strenghtening arguments , flaws , identifying conclusions and arithmethic questions . it's my weak spot weih .. ) haha .. * pathethic laughs *
oh yea . i'm gonna stop crapping . =)
to mention about sth which i dun wish to have as foreword for my blog , i just realised i have been blogging very consistently u know , it's 1 post per month !! haha . good . good for lazy people like me who always finds dozens of excuses not to blog , i guess my blog is just well-maintained . haha . rite ??? ans : yes !!! it's well maintained with consistent blogs ! ( ignore me , i syok-ING sendiri )
yi ying loves everyone who reads her blog ,
thanks .
haha .. well ... there are lots of stuffs happening around May ...
to me , May equals :
1. AS actual . ( god. i'm gonna whack myself wif pillow . still blogging now ??? !! haha . nvm . not gonna kill anyway )
2. Mother's day ( which is one day before my AS , oh gosh , i'm not going to celebrate mother's day wif mummy this year , and i haven't got her a present - but i know what to get her =) , mummy sorry , i love u =* )
3. * trumpet blows * somebody's birthday !!! hahhahaha!! to make it a little bit more obvious , it's my birthday , haha . a lil' bit beh pai seh here , coz no one's gonna look on my blog anyway , i dun care =) . haha . oh yea . it's bad oso . coz i'm no longer a "flower" anymore ( girls at the age of 18 are flowers, haven't u heard before ? ) but after 18 , they never said wat u are . i guess would be grass / fertiliser . lol . anyway , it's gonna be common . just like anyday of my life, coz it's during exam period . can't celebrate oso . just wish myself happy b'day ba .
and seriously , actuals is killing me . softly , tenderly , stretching it's claws on me . ( sounds like a cat rite ?? i hate cats . due to mr. hari's influence , haha . ) so , that concludes i hate actuals as much as i hate cats . ( thinking skills application ?? i think i'm gonna go crazy wif strenghtening arguments , flaws , identifying conclusions and arithmethic questions . it's my weak spot weih .. ) haha .. * pathethic laughs *
oh yea . i'm gonna stop crapping . =)
to mention about sth which i dun wish to have as foreword for my blog , i just realised i have been blogging very consistently u know , it's 1 post per month !! haha . good . good for lazy people like me who always finds dozens of excuses not to blog , i guess my blog is just well-maintained . haha . rite ??? ans : yes !!! it's well maintained with consistent blogs ! ( ignore me , i syok-ING sendiri )
yi ying loves everyone who reads her blog ,
thanks .
Friday, April 11, 2008
great morning tempted me to do this =)
seriously , today's just the same as any of other days , the morning is still the same as any other morning, but ... i just simply love to write something this morning , geez .
haha . i'll be going bac on monday , this means my trip bac to penang is coming to an end . oho !! my homesickness was cured, i got fully recharged , and ... i've been happy all this while =) hahaa . good for me .
so called 'holiday' is ending ,what awaits will be something great, rite ?? it's my As final coming soon , and i wanna get into a good university !!! tat's wat i am hoping , praying very very very much . yaya .. work hard , and it'll come gradually . dun worry . anything other than getting good results would be out of my control, rite ?? just study study study , pretend tat i dun hav a life this moment , haha . sounds pathetic , but we dun hav a choice i guess ?? rite ??
haha .. just go for it !! for everyone of us who have our dreams =) jia you jia you !!
well .... a great morning tempted me to write this , haha .
haha . i'll be going bac on monday , this means my trip bac to penang is coming to an end . oho !! my homesickness was cured, i got fully recharged , and ... i've been happy all this while =) hahaa . good for me .
so called 'holiday' is ending ,what awaits will be something great, rite ?? it's my As final coming soon , and i wanna get into a good university !!! tat's wat i am hoping , praying very very very much . yaya .. work hard , and it'll come gradually . dun worry . anything other than getting good results would be out of my control, rite ?? just study study study , pretend tat i dun hav a life this moment , haha . sounds pathetic , but we dun hav a choice i guess ?? rite ??
haha .. just go for it !! for everyone of us who have our dreams =) jia you jia you !!
well .... a great morning tempted me to write this , haha .
Friday, February 22, 2008
new year !! thailand !!
promised kath to get some new updates on my blog ..
okay , sorry , i had been lazy all this while , to be honest , blogging just don't suit me too well ..
1st . i'm not english proficient
2nd. i'm a lazy person
3rd. i get "tongue-tied" when i'm facing my monitor, too much to say , too much to blog, what shall i start with ??
haha .. back to the topic.
okay , lunar new year just passed , and i had a great holiday !! the only part i regret / condemn is it's just way too short !! hey taylor's ... give me more holidays pls ..
btw, it's over, pointless to argue wif the admission office ..
ha. and .. this is sth that never ever happened in my family history ...
we went thailand on the 1st day of chinese new year !! spent 3 days there , it's a very "family moment" and i loved it very much ..
mum said : she wants to spend more times with her children , considering the fact that a few years later we won't be by her side , sis is gonna get married anyway, er kor is settling down at taiwan , the year after next heaven knows where would i be , so this is the 1st time we skipped d tradition .
1st day , went songkhla + hattyai( it's just a small town, anyway ) , not bad , went to c d mermaid statue ( but the tour guide din tell us anything about it's story , needs some improvement ^^ ) and we went to c those shows .. ( not thai girl shows , those are XXX ) , went to c those guys who underwent operation for sexual transfer ( did i get it rite ?? sex transfer or sexual transfer ??? sorry .. ) they are kinda obscene anyway , and it really broadened my "perspectives", they are really super skinny , super sexy, super gentle ! haha ! too bad i'm not that type of gal ..
2nd day , explored around hattyai , tried d koay teow soup, fried oyster, desserts , not bad .. but kinda expensive .. the only food i love is from the stall near my hotel -- mayflower hotel , there's this lady selling nangka dessert( something like bubur chacha + nangka ) , greencurry laksa , and tomyam laksa . sth to note : whatever the thais tell u that they're not spicy / mild spicy , they're spicy for malaysians and whatever they tell u that it's a little bit spicy , it's super super super spicy for malaysians !! haha .. that's why the tomyam soup turned out to burn my nostrils and i have to finish a whole bottle of coke to recover from it .
at nite , exchange presents , ( it's sth like christmas, but we can't see every of our family members during christmas , so we changed to chinese new year instead )
i bought a raulph lauren shirt for my erkor
mum bought a seiko watch for dad
sis bought a shirt for mum
dad bought a blouse for sis
i got a scarf and a necklace from my big bro
and er kor gave big bro sth very weird .. a bottle of heinekken , chocolates , and a hypo for hanging purpose .. that's just what he does always .. being special as usual **
3rd day , nth much to say ,we explored around and went back home .
it was an enjoyable trip anyway and i'm very very happy ^^
okay , sorry , i had been lazy all this while , to be honest , blogging just don't suit me too well ..
1st . i'm not english proficient
2nd. i'm a lazy person
3rd. i get "tongue-tied" when i'm facing my monitor, too much to say , too much to blog, what shall i start with ??
haha .. back to the topic.
okay , lunar new year just passed , and i had a great holiday !! the only part i regret / condemn is it's just way too short !! hey taylor's ... give me more holidays pls ..
btw, it's over, pointless to argue wif the admission office ..
ha. and .. this is sth that never ever happened in my family history ...
we went thailand on the 1st day of chinese new year !! spent 3 days there , it's a very "family moment" and i loved it very much ..
mum said : she wants to spend more times with her children , considering the fact that a few years later we won't be by her side , sis is gonna get married anyway, er kor is settling down at taiwan , the year after next heaven knows where would i be , so this is the 1st time we skipped d tradition .
1st day , went songkhla + hattyai( it's just a small town, anyway ) , not bad , went to c d mermaid statue ( but the tour guide din tell us anything about it's story , needs some improvement ^^ ) and we went to c those shows .. ( not thai girl shows , those are XXX ) , went to c those guys who underwent operation for sexual transfer ( did i get it rite ?? sex transfer or sexual transfer ??? sorry .. ) they are kinda obscene anyway , and it really broadened my "perspectives", they are really super skinny , super sexy, super gentle ! haha ! too bad i'm not that type of gal ..
2nd day , explored around hattyai , tried d koay teow soup, fried oyster, desserts , not bad .. but kinda expensive .. the only food i love is from the stall near my hotel -- mayflower hotel , there's this lady selling nangka dessert( something like bubur chacha + nangka ) , greencurry laksa , and tomyam laksa . sth to note : whatever the thais tell u that they're not spicy / mild spicy , they're spicy for malaysians and whatever they tell u that it's a little bit spicy , it's super super super spicy for malaysians !! haha .. that's why the tomyam soup turned out to burn my nostrils and i have to finish a whole bottle of coke to recover from it .
at nite , exchange presents , ( it's sth like christmas, but we can't see every of our family members during christmas , so we changed to chinese new year instead )
i bought a raulph lauren shirt for my erkor
mum bought a seiko watch for dad
sis bought a shirt for mum
dad bought a blouse for sis
i got a scarf and a necklace from my big bro
and er kor gave big bro sth very weird .. a bottle of heinekken , chocolates , and a hypo for hanging purpose .. that's just what he does always .. being special as usual **
3rd day , nth much to say ,we explored around and went back home .
it was an enjoyable trip anyway and i'm very very happy ^^
Friday, January 4, 2008
随心札记
duh .. 我要开始了。。
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
duh .. 我要开始了。。
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
duh .. 我要开始了。。
前几分钟，在电脑前发呆、懊恼着，照片怎么都不见了？我本想upload照片的，因“一图胜千语”， 那么久都没blog了，稍稍的愧疚感，使的确有点，相知小蜜蜂不断地在耳边嗡嗡萦绕，叫我不得不忽视它的重要性。
好了，现在终于要开始了，我还是无言。我就是这样，有着电脑屏幕痴呆症。之前一直盯促自己，一定要写这个、写那个，但是对着电脑屏幕，却一个字也写不出，呆。
最近，在这个假期，我没读书，除了如往常一样到幼儿园帮忙外，我还迷上了 张爱玲。 这是让我觉得我的假期不是白费的唯一的借口，每当想看书时，就会从妈妈的书丛里翻出张爱玲的书籍，然后一一地翻看，看了《金锁记》、《怨女》、《半生缘》、《沉香屑》、《心经》等作品，让我不知不觉地陶醉在那时，三、四十年代的上海，那时的人物，场景，就仿佛从他文字里跳跃出来，活现在眼前。给我的感觉，是陈旧，是无奈，也许有点怪，但我形容它是像旧书那样，是黄色的。就是那种书皮泛黄的颜色。哈！
它里面，说着女人无尽无尽的悲哀，感叹家庭背景带来的困扰，感叹大时代的无奈，尤其是女人，那时的身份极卑微，我就这样，深深地被它牵动着。。
其实，张爱玲，他的生活很坎坷，他的人生坎坷，小时的阴影，父亲是个吸大麻的，母亲四岁就离开她，过后又加上后母的恶待，他的父亲曾经把它软禁，生病时不派认为他看诊，那他躺在床上，足足有半年之久，还有很多关于他的故事，说不尽，我在这里简述。他的情路坎坷，爱上了胡兰成，胡兰成那时是汪精卫的一员，除了让张爱玲受到情伤，更让张爱玲无辜被蒙上了汉奸的罪名，张爱玲那时伤心至极，从此绝不提起胡兰成。过后，他爱上了赖亚， 赖亚生重病，为了医好赖亚，熬夜写稿，稿子又一直被踢回，就一直写，写到经历憔悴，双眼出血，他生平坎坷的遭遇，让他的故事的主人翁大半都没有好的结局，正反映了现实的残酷。他的人生，就像他写的故事，正谓人生如戏，戏如人生啊！
说实在，我有写不完的张爱玲，但有愧于自己对他的认识，才一个月之久，不当评论过甚。张爱玲，还有待我慢慢发现他的其他特点呢！不妨抽空，也看看张爱玲吧。不看张爱玲，也可看其他。。千万别让千古流传下来的文化流失了哦！！华人加油！！
2008 年的我，也得好好加油，明天就回去subang jaya， 那时更接近梦想的一步了，往目标迈进！阿赢加油！大家加油！
阿赢
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