s-n-o-w !

ying and her favourite mickey

it snowed. =)

the terribly cold roommate.

today, laura was telling me: we're a weird bunch of roommates u know, u with your extreme coldness, and hannah with her sleeping and laura ... da da da.

so, i'm extremely cold. but honestly, it is really warm inside. =D

ying is starting to love here.

re-lived.

never knew time flies. counting the time left to graduation, there is still a mere 30 months left. question running in my mind: what am i to become after these 30 months?

ying has to look further. life doesn't stop here. move on. and work harder.

i'm trying to pick up bits and pieces of the shattered self of mine. cheers. life is always fruitful if you ever know how to see things from a different perspective. i'm so blessed. :)

p.s.: being kept busy with revision and essays has prevented me from blogging. sorry dearies. i promise i'll blog more often :D

the rose.

she saw a rose,

the prettiest rose ever,

in the rose bush.

she loves the rose.

and the rose,

loved her in return,

for this was the first time someone appreciated the beauty of the rose.

overwhelmed by her love towards the rose,

she hopes that she would own the rose someday.

she tries to pluck the rose,

even though she knew the thorns would hurt her hands.

the thorns from the rose pricked her hands,

her hand and her heart bled.

the rose has changed its heart,

and used its thorns to defense against her,

it hurted her so much.

she walked away,

and hopes that the rose would look at her someday.

but the rose never did.

silly girl she is,

for she still cares for the rose.

倔强就是我

当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样

坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚

我如果对自己妥协如果对自己说谎

即使别人原谅我也不能原谅

最美的愿望一定最疯狂

我就是我自己的神在我活的地方

我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放

下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱

这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良

我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光

你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀

你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰

逆风的方向更适合飞翔

我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降

我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放

下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱

这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

就这一次让我大声唱

lalalala...

就算失望不能绝望...

lalalalala...

就这一次我和我的倔强

有点想家了。这个星期好忙哦，时间太少了，要做的东西太多了，还好有五月天陪着我。要加油了！

mr. wu at chinatown

so .. i went to chinatown today with my hall mates !! it's a buffet restaurant called mr. wu. costed 4 pounds for a buffet. food is actually not that good, but i went there coz i was real curious, wanted to try the legendary crispy seaweed and prawn toast ( which claims to be served at chinese buffet restaurants but actually it isn't chinese food!! but can't find any. speaking of disappointments. argh.) so we took a bus to get there, and boarded a tube to get back. i'll just cut short on details coz i know pictures says more than words .

my part of food. it wasn't that nice so i just ate a portion despite it is a buffet. i'll eat more if i'm back in malaysia, penang's eastern and oriental hotel. :p

all of my hallmates who went there :p

and the favourite of the day is :

chinese tea ( i got a big pot !!! big big pot and the tea is super nice !! has the homey feeling to it) and kikkoman soya sauce *big big grin on her face*

despite the lousy/ ok food, the mr. wu is okay actually for i get to drink real pure chinese tea .

recipe testing, which turns out to be a party

this is a story of yesterday.

i was running a risk of grocery shortage ( had been surviving on jam, bread and milo for the past week and i'm really sick of it ) so i decided to go to the BIG sainsbury to do serious grocery shopping. the initial plan was to go with my roomies, laura and hannah. i finished lecture at 1, so i headed back to bernard sunley hall (BSH)

1.30 pm: reached BSH. texted laura. starts waiting.

2.30pm: she's not back yet. so i planned to go myself and be back real quick. started walking. along the road, met zie wearn and zhi xiong, they just bought their groceries from tesco express. bade hi and continues walking. it was raining.

3.00pm: reached sainsbury !! it was like my life saver for they have all the food and utilities that i need to cook !!! was super excited and shopped around. i planned to buy a lot for i really can't stand the taste of bread, jam and milo for 3 meals anymore. and guess what ? i met zie wearn and zhi xiong AGAIN!! and so we decided to take a cab back to evelyn gardens. ( which i think is really worth the money for i am buying A LOT )

so i shopped for: oil, rice, pennes ( a type of pasta ), baked beans, tuna, mayo, salt, vege, onions, garlic, potato, sugar, ham, eggs, butter, crisps, cheese, chicken fillets, tea towels, saucepan, frying pan, chopping board, food storage container, box to store clothes (since my cupboard doesn't have any compartments, just the bar for hangers), can opener. these are things i need to survive for the next 2 weeks, i'm just super excited with the idea of not having any more bread and jam for the next 2 weeks. =D

4.00pm : finished shopping! so headed back with a cab. it was 6.80 pounds for the trip, and so 2.30 pounds for each. which is real worthy coz i really bought A LOT.

this saturday my hall is having an international food fair, where everyone cooks something from their country, something like potluck. it was zie wearn's birthday and he is planning to fry some rice, so i cooked what i plan to cook for my hall mates this saturday, curry chicken (from mum's recipe, this is the awesome-est thing i have from her) to go along with the fried rice.

this is what we had for the dinner :

fried rice, curry chicken, fried pork chop ( i did the curry chicken and pile of meat on the plate )

curry chicken upon closer view. the gravy actually was sucked up by the potatoes. so it's real thick and turned to mashed curry potato. but nonetheless it still tastes good !! thanks mum!!

so later, more people are calling and wanted to turn up to celebrate zie wearn's birthday. so i cooked an additional dish which was everyone's favourite i think. baked beans with eggs. real easy.

tomyam by shi yunn which tastes like home =D

so this is what we had for dinner, later, there is celebration of zie wearn's birthday .

shi yunn cooking for the 2nd round dinner, when more malaysians starts to crowd the kitchen.

2nd round. the cupcakes were actually the "birthday cakes"

zie wearn with his cake

the birthday cakes. =D

and so, the party starts ! pictures of people ( malaysian folks of imperial )

wern chia and pie

jyi, hui pin and yee chinn

guys =D

big group picture of guys

big group picture of gals

as of you who are wondering what kind of room i'm staying, so here's a peek of it :

my bed, with cards, and my dearest niu.

my room, my corner. there's a study table which is kinda large next to the bed.

so this is part of my triple room for which i pay 67.66 pounds per week. which is real cheap around south kensington for this is a posh area. do u know that rowan atkinson aka mr. bean lives in the same garden as i do? shi yunn saw him at sainsbury. XD

and i do miss malaysian food. i need more recipes.

if you miss me and want to mail me food / cards, please send it to this address:

YI YING LAW

4429, 40-44 Bernard Sunley Hall,

Evelyn Gardens,

London SW7 3BB

United Kingdom.

hello from london !!

hi and hi to all , i'm finally in london!! i was on a flight on 30th sep, reached heathrow on 1st of oct, and now i'm here blogging !!

time flies, don't they ?

well, london has offered me an exciting experience i would say, i'm currently residing in bernard sunley hall, which its residents are very much privileged to live in one of the smallest halls in imperial coz there will be much more social interaction among us!! phew. that was a long sentence. but you get what i mean, don't ya ?

oh by the way, you do want highlights of the moments don't you ? that's why you're still reading this !!

well, i was at irene aunty's place from 1st of oct - 3rd of oct, it was a pleasant stay at her place, for she brought me around london to settle most of the stuffs, buying duvet covers, getting mobile phone number, and asking jake to bring us around imperial. jake was a student in imperial, so he brought us around, travelling at night after his work, walked around imperial, from south kensington station to bernard sunley hall, and from bernard sunley hall to imperial !! and later we did the same for jia ling's place too. they are really really super duper nice people, among the nicest you would have meet in london i would say. i really do owe them a big THANK YOU.

on 3rd of october, i moved in to bernard sunley hall, and had a boat party on thames river. it was more on alcohols and dancing and talking, which i don't find myself quite fit into these kind of scenarios. so i just enjoyed myself on the boat, looking around. it's kinda hard to find yourself cruising on a boat along a river for 5 hours if you're a tourist don't you ? so i enjoyed the opportunity, which makes up for the non-talking.

and yes, today !! 5th of october, i'm actually just back from ice skating !! it's my first time ice skating, we were at the queen's bowling and skating rink. and oh man, i fall 5 times !! which quoting them ( those who skated before ) , i'm quite good at it. so .. perhaps more credits for me for not falling 13 times which a girl told me she did on her first time. i'm lucky i guess.

well, tomorrow is fresher's fair, and i'll get to look around for clubs to join. it is said that it will rain tomorrow, so let's see how it goes. i'm hoping for a sunny day though :)

p.s. : i'm gonna get sore bums. ouch !! =D

椰子糖

明天，是我的婆婆的生忌。于是，刚去张罗要拜祭的东西。我们都在买她喜欢吃的食物。在卖糕的档口，看到了久违的椰子糖。

让我告诉你，椰子糖的故事：

每一次去婆婆家时，她都会问我：“吃饱了吗？要留下来吃么？”那时 超现实的我，看了看她桌上的菜好像不怎么吸引人，婆婆也好像吃得不够的感觉，所以每次都会拒绝留下吃饭。而在每一次拒绝了之后，她都会说：“那你等等。”接着，慢慢走到冰箱，掏出几颗椰子糖，说送给我吃。所以每一次从婆婆家回来，我的口里都会含着椰子糖。

婆婆的椰子糖，都是不新鲜的，那糖老黏着糖纸，要费不少力气才能把糖果吃进嘴巴。那时总想：为什么糖果这样的？但我天生爱吃糖，所以也不怎么嫌弃，都吃得津津乐道。每次去婆婆家，都会很高兴地期待椰子糖，直到长大了以后，婆婆看我长大了，也不再给我椰子糖了。

自小，我就不太擅长和婆婆沟通（我比较亲外婆），每次见她，都是聊些客套话，每次都会问问我的学业（小时的我，不美丽也不可爱，让我比较引以为荣的，就是我的成绩了）。所以，我对婆婆的印象，一直都很模糊。那时的我认为她都好像比较疼惜我的堂哥堂姐们：堂哥是长孙，堂姐们家境比较富有。那时的我总觉得她是那种老潮州的思想，而感觉失宠的我，也从不尝试去了解我的婆婆。

直到今天，婆婆去世以后，今天我看到了椰子糖给我的启示。原来关心、疼爱，一切都尽在一颗颗椰子糖里。

sin yin

*drum rolls* proudly introducing to you my high school twin, bao bei sin yin!! =D

so, sin yin is leaving for india . to embark upon her journey, a new challenge, towards becoming a professional and dedicated doctor, which i believe SHE WILL.

for the past 7 years, she is someone whom i have always talked to and joked to. someone who reads my thoughts and understands them without fail. someone whom i have shared sooo much of personal stuffs with. someone i will and always turn to either when i'm emo, happy, sad, bored or anything. gosh i seriously gonna miss her soo much. ><

all the best to you, sin yin dear !! gosh i am seriously missing you already. X)

my high school essay

so.. HAPPY MERDEKA people !! i did nothing much today, but i started packing up for UK !! ( but i did very little, seriously )

when i was packing, i saw one of my exercise books during my high school year that looks like this :

see my name ? and the subject teacher is mr. samuel. gosh i miss his jokes. A LOT.

so inside the book, there's an essay entitled : write an essay about a famous person you have met. the essay is way too long-winded hence i shall extract only the juicy parts.

oh , it is a story of me bumping into jay chou at a shopping mall with his body guards, and the story follows..

here is the part which i would like to share with:

...

as i was gazing at him, thinking that i am so lucky to meet with him, suddenly, he ran out of my sight. i was shocked. i rushed forward and found that he was kneeling down to pick up a can which dropped on the floor. i gasped. what an environmental lover he is ! when he was getting up, a kid holding a cup of beverage suddenly knocked into him. the beverage which turns out to be coffee spilled on his shirt. oh my God ! i thought he was going to be angry, but in fact he bent down to check whether the kid was hurt and forgave him. he is really a good guy.

kua-jiong rite ? yi ying laughs to death. X)

one of my favourite high school pics during form 5

( poh hsing, soo hui, adeline, and me )

enjoy this, people ! =)

make hay while the sun shines

gather ye rosebuds

for time and tide wait for no one.

jumbled thoughts.

i have mixed feelings right now.

i think i lost grip on myself. or i'm just emo.

or perhaps i need a break after those hectic weeks ( including this and the next week & the previous weeks ).

i think i'm worried about going rembau.

i think i'm thinking too much. thanks to TTMS and you-know-who who influenced me with it.but i dun blame u for that! X)

i think i shall stop thinking and head off to sleep.

goodnite to the world. tomorrow will be a better day.

Something to share with before i put an end to this topic :

The strongest oak must fall

The sweet things in life

To you were just loaned

So how can you lose

What you've never owned

so true isn't it ?

i think i am thinking too much again for tonight. good night everyone.

p.s. : i dunno why but i hate fb recently for it's high publicity. i shall quit fb-ing for the time being.

Cheers of Joy, Joy and Joy

It has been 3 weeks since the JPA officer called and said I'm offered the Ivy League and Equivalent Universities Scholarship. That's when happiness made an entrance into my life again. I was aroused with the feeling of satisfaction for being able to get something that I wanted so so much. With 90% luck and 10% effort, I manage to get it anyway, after lots of twist and turns. I am so lucky after all !! I do believe in the saying: if you want something, the whole universe conspires to help you achieve it, and it has been proven to be true for me till now. So the big truth here is : I am going UK after all !!! Well, after all those misguidance on NUS , ASEAN, finally.. I am back on the right track.

I am soooo looking forward to October, when my new sem starts. =)

Also, frustration is kicking in : My pack from JPA hasn't arrived yet, and it has been 2 weeks since the officer promised to send me the pack with information in it. I need the pack to proceed with the things I need to do to settle down in UK. It is very very IMPORTANT to me. She said she sent last Thursday *finally* via courier, and till now there is still no signs of ANYTHING. I was anticipating so much since Friday, and now I am frustrated. This is one of those hateful moments when I realised that I do freak out on small matters. My kia-su-ness has revealed itself unknowingly. Well, I hope my pack will arrive real soon so that I can quit this bad kia-su demeanour, which is bad for health cause I can't stop thinking, worrying and wondering what happened to my dear pack, coz poslaju usually don't take such a long time to reach the recipient.

Well, what I can do for now is just hope, hope and hope, hoping that it'll arrive tomorrow, if not, further actions will be taken by yours truly, coz she really needs her pack, the pack is like her LIFE and she'll take all costs to get it =)

I am babbling and I think I am going nuts. Extreme happiness and excessive worries are both taking their tolls on me. Help help help .

Yet, apart from those miseries, there is always a but : I am really very happy and grateful for getting to go to Imperial, I can't believe how lucky I am. =)

trust me, kids don't lie Xp

haha yea, the title says it all . the argument of the day : have i got any fatter ?

what happened was, i have been eating incessantly . ohmygawd. haha yea, it's the fear of having no good food in s'pore that drives me to eat so much, and who can reject the tempations of penang local food? geez. so all my efforts to slim down for the past 6 months went off. i gained weight, which is not much to my surprise, coz i have been eating a lot. trust me. haha.

so since i am working in a kindergarten, i made up my mind to ask the kids whether have i got any fatter. *trust me, kids do tell the truth k? *

me : did jie jie got any fatter ??
them : no la jie jie, i think u're slim.
me: *chuckles happily* hahaha.

see, kids tell the truth despite the fact that my clothes have been getting tighter. i do believe they tell the truth.

call this self deception, which i am proud to claim of. haha. and don't ask me to cut down my food consumption. i am seriously gonna miss penang food very very much !!

tell me kids do tell the truth, right ? XD


yes this is lame. hehe. =))

rejoice first, think later .

there's some news to rejoice : i have secured an ASEAN scholarship to study Chem. Eng. at NUS =)


sounds funny but i wanna be a deep thinker for the time being. help me pls lim yvonne. =p

i just turned 20

.TURNING 20 .

hey i turned 20 a few days ago. i wonder how time flies. it has been 1/5 decade i live in this world, amazing ain't it ? i really can't believe i have survived the 2o years.

turning 20 means a lot to me, which is inexplicable.i believe perserverance will lead and guide me through days ahead.

thanks to those who remembered. love u guys ;)

disappointment

i have received an offer from NUS . finally . well, i'm not so sure whether it's good news or bad, but ... it's chemical engineering !!! my 2nd option to be exact. it was kinda gratifying since they gave me an offer, but i feel sad coz i'm not accepted for the medicine course, the one i am always expecting, i guess sometimes it's hard to get things that you REALLY want, life can't be always smooth, but to console myself, i shall say : everything happens for a reason. geez, that sounds much better, ain't it ? rather than the self pitying version. but i'm really pissed. i did made an effort to prepare for the interview, and i was even turned down before the interview !! i shall apply those skills in later time. it's their loss i tell u .

and now, i am having a hard time too. having to choose between chemical engineering and pharmacology. i don't really quite know how would i have ended up in such situation, but really , sometimes things just happen when we least expect it. SURPRISE !!! that gives a jolt and probably some twist and turns in my life perhaps .

well, i'm turning 20. i should have handle this situation in a much more mature way. so probably i should quit venting on blog and turn to look for more practical solutions. and at the meantime, remaining happy and wishful seems so hard for me. i'm feeling disappointed .

well, not much to worry, i'll grieve and move on. i'll be fine , i just need some time.

LOST and FOUND

after much wallowing in self-search, finally i have made up my mind. if, by luck or by chances, i am accepted by NUS to study medicine, i'll be going NUS. * cheers for me for finally making up such an arduous decision * hip-hip-hurray! =D

it is not an easy decision to make, since both seems luring and temptative to me hahaa. but in my hearts of hearts, my wish still tends towards becoming a doctor. weird eh ?? ain't it ? after so much twist and turns, finally i believe : i would live happiest as a doctor, after all. imperial college might be some branded clothes that doesn't fit me, that's the way i would like to describe it.

hence, i'm seriously counting on my application to NUS. my application is still processing, hence i am quite worried. ME ME The WORRIER !!! gosh here i am again, WORRIED for nothing. i would like to crack my head and tell the brain : wake up my dear yi ying , there's nothing to worry =p

there's a saying : if you want something , the whole universe conspires to help you to get it. i hope it turned out to be true for me too . =)

i'll be waiting with hope.

the wings of hope

the wings of hope . yes, it harbours my dreams and all my future that counts on it.



it shall not be tempered nor wavered by adverse conditions. it shall abstain and remain strong, faithfully.



it shall remain modest and true, never tempted easily.



i shall never let it fly away, even if i'm grasping on the last straws.



yonder wings of hope of mine, i promise i'll let you fly high some day. i promise.

scribblings

my mind has been complicated . REAL REAL complicated.

i'm worrying about things that I AM NOT SUPPOSED to worry at this moment. duh, i think i'm just pretending to be such a miserable fool, hahahaha. anyway, life has been GOOD minus the troubles and worries, maybe i should look more towards the positive side of life. yea, i should have. =))

i went back to school today, hrmm .. seems like school is just doing fine without me. sorry but i can't help being a bit narcissistic, oopsie !! school hasn't changed much, just for some newly added facilities, and there are the teachers who can still remember u. which reminds me of the good, old yi ying that i used to know. the super duper crazy one, haha. and the best friends gang .and the days i had in school were total happiness. how i miss those . =p

well, there is one thing that made my heart shivers. the spouse of my guitar teacher was injured during her trip to australia. it was injury on her spinal bone. guess she her neck was knocked against the rocks during her boat trip. and her husband, which is my guitar teacher, has to stay with her to proceed with her operation at australia. they extended their date of return home. it is out of the blue, and the news shocked everyone. life is full of uncertainties, i should have appreciated what i have now and work hard on it. i'll keep my fingers crossed for them. i hope they will be okay. =)

ah ignore me, i'm just emo.

ang gu and mi gu

this happens this morning , to me.

venue : kota permai wet market
time : 7+ am

this morning, after our routinely shopping at kota permai wet market ( me and my mum ) , my mum was asking me to buy her breakfast as usual . so, we headed to a stall selling kuih.

mum : ying , get me the ang gu . ( the one wif the tortoise and bean paste inside )

ying : okay. boss, giv me the ang gu . i want two .

i pointed to the mi gu , the oval one , and think that's the ang gu , but he definitely has no affinity towards me coz he's not responding. so i repeated, yet, no respond. so i quit asking him and headed to another stall who sells kuih, then again, i pointed to the mi gu and asked for the ang gu. and the person gave me mi gu . 2 big BIJI of mi gu. and i showed my mum proudly the mi gus. by that time, she already bought the ang gu at another stall . she has no suspicion towards the mi gu at all.

when i wen t to the car , only i realised, oh god !! that's mi gu !! it's not ang gu !!! and i got 2 mi gu for my lunch and my dinner. this is ultimate blurness . so so yi ying.

18SG

shoot. damn. pig. pig. pig. pig. pig .

duh. who cares ?

the lesson learnt from here : girls must not curse. it's impolite. my temper has worsen, it's bad. i seriously need cure.

SOS .... =.=

note of thanks

hey, here's some good news to share with : i have been offered a place from imperial college to study pharmacology !! ranked 6th by THES , it's the place i have always dreamt to be, seriously.

special thanks to my mum , for rendering me her utmost support to aid me in getting through all the low rise and high tides of my life. the feeling of gratitude i have for you can't be simply uttered by words, seriously you gave me the best you can. i love you , mum.

special thanks to my life time buddy #1 : bao bei sin yin, for all the phone calls, jia you jia you text messages and all the subang jaya outings we had throughout this 1 and half year. thanks for lending me your ears whilst i vent, you made me feel very very good everytime, hehe. your presence, resembles much of home to me, makes me feel a bit normal, balanced my hormones after all ( haha. ) hart you very very much darling bei bei =)

special thanks to BFF yvonne : for sitting right beside me for 1 and half year, going through all the TTMS sessions, crappy talks, makan sessions ( i miss Cassamia and Miss Fruit Juice a lot ) , lectures and all the UCAS stuffs, Cambridge mock interviews, actual interviews, BMAT exam, Cambridge TSA and many many other stuffs we had together. hehe, thanks for playing the part as my 2nd brain( to help me in thinking stuffs when my brain just can't seem to work ) , as my personal interpreter when people don't seem to get what i'm saying and for teaching me many many things. i couldn't have survived college without you after all, thanks darling .

special thanks to BFF kath : for making mr. george more cute and lovable for semester 3, and for the gossiping sessions we had, for the HOT magazines i read ( i start to miss them now, haha ) , for the fun time we had in your room to help me relieve my stress and tension and for always cheering me up. my mum says you're a joker, and i believed it too, you seriously indoctrinated much of the fun factor into my college life, hahahaha, don't cry yea kath ? thankiu very much .

special thanks to BFF jul : for all the makan nice nice food sessions we had together, for all the care you gave throughout this one and half year, for all the jokes and laughter you brought us, sometimes i think i should have shared more of my life with you , thanks jul.

special thanks to PM 16 : for being nice-nice collegemates , and for being together-gether for this 1 and half year. =))

special thanks to taylor's lecturers : for helping me in getting the grades that i wished for and for all the guidance they gave.

special thanks to jia yen and ah wei : for being supportive always. yen, thanks a lot for sticking wif me throughout the 1st year in college. you're another 1 who reminds me of home, heehee. thanks for being my vent pot and helped me in getting through my emotional ups and downs , haha. terima kasih banyak banyak yen !!

speical thanks to wayne and cia : for helping me in making my decision of going to imperial, both of you are seriously great people that i have ever met. wayne, thanks for showing such great spirit of never giving up even when the future is full of uncertainty. it has reassured me that going there is the best option i can ever have.

thanks to everyone and every incident which came along . i believe everything happens for a reason =)))

random

what yi ying says to herself :

wat i did was just at the passing mark level, i must perform till the max. =))
jia you jia you !!

what yi ying is doing right now :

keeping and eye on grandma who is insomniac at this hour + blogging ( coz she insists me on doing something and leave her alone )

what yi ying is going to do soon :

pack up and get ready for phuket

what yi ying was doing previously :

eat eat eat and performing her role excellently as a couch potato

what yi ying plans to do after new year :

get a guitar, learn drawing and learn driving

what yi ying wishes everybody :

happy new year !! gong xi gong xi !!

p.s.: have to admit that i was just being random. too many things i wanted to write and i considered summarising as a better option . I guess that's why we learn rumusan in PMR ?? haha .

my dear january

hey , sorry for my long gone update but they're coming up rite now !!!

i had a fabulous month . it was a month crammed with many many incidents, getting tense and pressure every week i would so daresay , haha. it started with the release of results from cambridge. they're supposed to release the results by 2nd of jan by any means , and st. johns college, the college i'm applying to told me that they're going to notify the applicants of their decision via letter , so it took the letter 10 days to reach my house. 10th of jan. i happily got the letter , opened it and there was slight disappointment and slight happiness. i got into winter pool !!! so .. it's not a bad thing , since i'm not totally rejected but they're giving me a 2nd chance if other colleges wants me . so .. i have the chance of being re-admitted after all !! that was the bright side of the story. so here is the disappointment followed by a tinny-winny bit of hope i'm still clinging onto.

i anxiously anticipated my letter from cambridge, checking my UCAS status daily to see if they are any changes . to my disappointment , there are none .

last week. 17/1 . i received rejection letter from cambridge. finally. they told me that my application was unsucessful. it was a sad moment, yet i understood that chances to get into cambridge was slim. i accepted it. so .. there were days of me being sad and moody . hahaa.

21/1 . i received my CIE A levels result !!! and it's just right at the level of satisfactory. haha. good . so gone were the feelings of emptiness and moodiness . hehe .

oh ya yi ying is back again, re-lived once more. =)))